The Songs I Deleted Yesterday, and an Explination
Music tends to be the most powerful force in my life. It takes me out of me, it clears my head, it moves my spirit. When I said going to nine inch nails was a spiritual thing for me, I mean it. When I can't make sense of life, and I can't touch the feelings I'm feeling, the music does it for me. It is my version of prayer. And lately, I've been stuck on a certain theme, as you all know. but having the lyrics here helps me move on, and it gives you the insight I can't otherwise give you. So there's going to be a series of 4 or 5 songs in this post, you don't need to read them, or you can. it's up to you.and, on a side note, please stop treating me like i'll shatter if the wind blows. i was just talking to M. about this, and I'm not as fragile as people apparently think I am. My world got shook up, and it's going to take some healing, but it did not get blown away or fall apart, and I'm going to be okay. I'll process over the next few days or weeks or whatever, but those who know already know my heart had moved on, and therefore was safe. my feelings and my ego got a little hurt, so i'll deal with that as i deal with everything. one step at a time.
Now and then, I confess, you cross my mind.
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time.
I've changed my way of thinking
I've tried hard to seperate
What came too soon from what came too late
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us, in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I've found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love
I'm counting on heaven to understand
I didn't mean to go and mess up all the plans
Sometimes you know where you should go
Before you know the way
I'll bother with tomorrow
Once I've made it through today.
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us, in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I've found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love
I don't think about black in terms of grey
Or revelations in the light of day
I don't think about cold in terms of ice
or second chances happening twice
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us, in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I've found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love
in terms of love - shedaisy
slept in my makeup
didn't get my teeth brushed
crashed on the couch
and now my mouth tastes like
yesterday's news
well hello jim bean
oh the places you've seen
if only you could talk
you'd tell me why
he walked out on me
and you
oh the things lovers do when it's over
oh the things lovers do when it's done
find a cool bottle
or a warm shoulder
wake up older
and try to move on
i drove around last night
thinking about our last fight
i cruised by your house
and all the lights were out
and you were gone
so i found me a stranger
with his comfortin danger
but i thought about you
the whole time we were getting it on
oh the things lovers do when it's over
oh the things lovers do when it's done
find a cool bottle
or a warm shoulder
wake up older
and try to move on
find a cool bottle, or a warm shoulder
wake up older and try to move on
slept in my makeup
didn't get my teeth brushed
crashed on the couch
and now my mouth tastes like
yesterday's news
wake up older - julie roberts
sunday dress hanging on the bedroom door.
empty bottle of wine on the hardwood floor.
last night he said she was the one.
oh but men and mascara, always run.
did i give my love too soon
or wait too long?
did i take it a little too easy,
or put it on too strong?
she was looking for love,
he was looking for fun,
yeah men and mascara, always run.
she ain't getting any younger
it wasn't supposed to be this way
staring in the mirror
with little black rivers running down her face
tomorrow's gonna be a brand new day
she'll wake up in the morning,
and wash it all away..
last night he said she was the one,
oh but men and mascara always run.
yeah men and mascara, always run.
men & mascara - julie roberts
how long did it take to find this letter?
i know it wasn't right when you got home.
was it about the time you started getting hungry
and looked to see what i left on the stove.
did it ever cross your mind to even worry?
or wonder where i am, is everything alright?
know that's why i left it on your pillow
cause that's the only time i cross your mind.
i refuse to be with you and be forgotten.
so this afternoon i thought why not just roll
afterall, i'm already lonely
i might as well be lonely alone.
maybe i've become a different woman
maybe you became a different man
you wonder why i'm doing what i'm doing
well i'm not expecting you to understand
cause you had no idea this was coming
how could you when i've always just been there
but you just go on taking me for granted
and for the first time in my life
i don't care
i refuse to be with you and be forgotten
so this afternoon i thought why not just roll
afterall, i'm already lonely
i might as well be lonely alone
afterall, i'm already lonely
i might as well be lonely alone.
lonely alone - julie roberts (yeah, i got her whole cd)
forgive, sounds good.
forget, i'm not sure i could.
they say time heals everything.
well i'm still waiting.
i'm through with doubt
there's nothing left for me to figure out
i've paid a price and i'll keep paying
i'm not ready to make nice
i'm not ready to back down
i'm still mad as hell
and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i prolly wouldn't if i could
cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should
i know, you said
can't you just get over it
it turned my whole world around
and i kinda like it
i made my bed and i sleep like a baby
with no regrets and i dont' mind saying
it's a sad sad story when
a mother will teach her daughter that
she aught hate a perfect stranger
and how in the world can the words that i said
send somebody so over the edge
that they'd write me a letter saying
i better just shut up and sing
or my life will be over
i'm not ready to make nice
i'm not ready to back down
i'm still mad as hell
and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i prolly wouldn't if i could
cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should
not ready to make nice - the dixie chicks
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time.
I've changed my way of thinking
I've tried hard to seperate
What came too soon from what came too late
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us, in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I've found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love
I'm counting on heaven to understand
I didn't mean to go and mess up all the plans
Sometimes you know where you should go
Before you know the way
I'll bother with tomorrow
Once I've made it through today.
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us, in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I've found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love
I don't think about black in terms of grey
Or revelations in the light of day
I don't think about cold in terms of ice
or second chances happening twice
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us, in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I've found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love
in terms of love - shedaisy
slept in my makeup
didn't get my teeth brushed
crashed on the couch
and now my mouth tastes like
yesterday's news
well hello jim bean
oh the places you've seen
if only you could talk
you'd tell me why
he walked out on me
and you
oh the things lovers do when it's over
oh the things lovers do when it's done
find a cool bottle
or a warm shoulder
wake up older
and try to move on
i drove around last night
thinking about our last fight
i cruised by your house
and all the lights were out
and you were gone
so i found me a stranger
with his comfortin danger
but i thought about you
the whole time we were getting it on
oh the things lovers do when it's over
oh the things lovers do when it's done
find a cool bottle
or a warm shoulder
wake up older
and try to move on
find a cool bottle, or a warm shoulder
wake up older and try to move on
slept in my makeup
didn't get my teeth brushed
crashed on the couch
and now my mouth tastes like
yesterday's news
wake up older - julie roberts
sunday dress hanging on the bedroom door.
empty bottle of wine on the hardwood floor.
last night he said she was the one.
oh but men and mascara, always run.
did i give my love too soon
or wait too long?
did i take it a little too easy,
or put it on too strong?
she was looking for love,
he was looking for fun,
yeah men and mascara, always run.
she ain't getting any younger
it wasn't supposed to be this way
staring in the mirror
with little black rivers running down her face
tomorrow's gonna be a brand new day
she'll wake up in the morning,
and wash it all away..
last night he said she was the one,
oh but men and mascara always run.
yeah men and mascara, always run.
men & mascara - julie roberts
how long did it take to find this letter?
i know it wasn't right when you got home.
was it about the time you started getting hungry
and looked to see what i left on the stove.
did it ever cross your mind to even worry?
or wonder where i am, is everything alright?
know that's why i left it on your pillow
cause that's the only time i cross your mind.
i refuse to be with you and be forgotten.
so this afternoon i thought why not just roll
afterall, i'm already lonely
i might as well be lonely alone.
maybe i've become a different woman
maybe you became a different man
you wonder why i'm doing what i'm doing
well i'm not expecting you to understand
cause you had no idea this was coming
how could you when i've always just been there
but you just go on taking me for granted
and for the first time in my life
i don't care
i refuse to be with you and be forgotten
so this afternoon i thought why not just roll
afterall, i'm already lonely
i might as well be lonely alone
afterall, i'm already lonely
i might as well be lonely alone.
lonely alone - julie roberts (yeah, i got her whole cd)
forgive, sounds good.
forget, i'm not sure i could.
they say time heals everything.
well i'm still waiting.
i'm through with doubt
there's nothing left for me to figure out
i've paid a price and i'll keep paying
i'm not ready to make nice
i'm not ready to back down
i'm still mad as hell
and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i prolly wouldn't if i could
cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should
i know, you said
can't you just get over it
it turned my whole world around
and i kinda like it
i made my bed and i sleep like a baby
with no regrets and i dont' mind saying
it's a sad sad story when
a mother will teach her daughter that
she aught hate a perfect stranger
and how in the world can the words that i said
send somebody so over the edge
that they'd write me a letter saying
i better just shut up and sing
or my life will be over
i'm not ready to make nice
i'm not ready to back down
i'm still mad as hell
and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i prolly wouldn't if i could
cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should
not ready to make nice - the dixie chicks
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